Occasionally Disoriented

Gahd! I miss you.

I don’t know why but I miss you so much right now. I’ve been with you the whole day, talked to you a couple of times and now I am missing you. Maybe I miss the feeling of having a crush on you… Did I liked you that much? I can’t tell because I’m so good at lying even I, myself, does not know which is true.

I was happy that we talked today, like normal people and without that awkwardness. I was happy that we are able to laugh about simple, stupid and, maybe-not-funny-to-others stuff. I was happy that you told that you will throw me out if I ever told ‘em to let you dance, yes I know it’s stupid but it made my heart skip a beat.

I wish we can continue on like this. Friends, close friends… because I know that’s what we’ll ever be.

Photos of the sky ( on the way to Venice Piazza )

Mom and Miguel :)

A blurred photo of Kuya Chad ( akosichadkulot )

Had dinner at Sizzling Pepper Steak

Had Blueberry Cheesecake Ice Cream (?) It was actually a bubblegum flavoured ice cream with Blueberry on crumbs, it’s graham… I think. Haha!

Today is the start of a new school year at iAcademy.

You can hype this at Lookbook :) 

First Day (by Gabe Garrovillas)

It was cloudy here at Antipolo City this morning so I opted to wear long sleeves but when I got to Ayala… It was freaking hot! I was sweating like a hog. lol

On me:

Bow Tie from SM Department Store// Boots from Call It Spring// Pants from Wrangler// Wrist Watch from Fossil// Long Sleeves Polo from Tiangge 

Thanks to Julie ( @thetearjerky ) for these photos.

With John Vytiaco ( johnvv ) and Karla ( forgot her url :| )

We went to SM Masinag to wait for my mum. She told us that we’ll have dinner outside. While waiting Miguel asked me to go to Starbucks because he’s hungry and tired.

He ordered a waffle with strawberry toppings and a strawberry flavoured drink and, I hada Mango Passion Fruit Shake.

He ordered his own drink! Haha!

On Miguel:

Plaid Longsleeves// Denim Pants// Black Bow Tie// Driving Shoes

This is actually my bow tie, the one I bought for Julie’s debut.

Starbucks in bokeh.

Aloha not because I’m in Hawaii. Aloha as in goodbye and hello.

I haven’t updated my blog that much aaand… my cousin’s going to move out and she’s bringing her laptop with her.

I’ll update anytime possible :)

11 questions (tag game) tagged by Bree

Rule 1- Post the rules.

Rule 2- Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and then make 11 new ones.

Rule 3- Tag 11 people and link them to your post.

Rule 4- Let them know you’ve tagged them.

1. Why did you follow Bree?

Because she’s so cool it made me drool. lol

2. What is your biggest insecurity and why?

Being single. I can see a lot of people getting mushy and fighting over petty things and it make me jealous. Hahahaha!

3. What kind of dresser are you?

On simple days or when I’m undecided what to wear I wear black, a monochromatic  and simple look. On other days I just wear a graphic shirt and jeans or when it’s not that hot I’ll end up wearing a knitted cardigan or a button down polo.

4. I am a watch collector. Do you collect any type of things?

When I was a kidd I used to collect Final Fantasy VII and X-Men (the movie) figures/toys, W.I.T.C.H and K-Zone Mags and, Keychains… now they’re lost or maybe they’re just inside a box in the storage. Now… I think I don’t collect anything… But I want to collect kitties. I want a munchkin!!~

5. 3 infamous facts about yourself

1. I scream when I’m bored
2. I have a bad temper
3.  ”You don’t get a bitch pass just cause you’re old.”  - I hate old people with gangster attitudes

6. What/who is your favorite subject to photograph and why?

Clouds and, my cousins and my brother

7. Do you think the people in the 21st century rely on the internet too much?

Yes. We interact with people using the internet, social networking and microblogging/blogging. We use it for research and it is where we get news sometimes.

8. If you could trade places with someone, where would this place be and why?

I’ll trade with a person who’s living in Milan or Greece.These places are rich in art and culture. 

9. Do you believe in ghosts?

Yup and I don’t want to see one.

10. What is your favorite time of the day and why?

Midnight. It’s the part of the day where I’m fully awake.

11. What is a song that reminds you of Bree?

So Fly - Slim

New Questions:

1. Why did you follow Gabe?
2. What’s your biggest fear?
3. What kind of books do you read?
4. 3 pet peeves.
5. 3 fave bands.
6. Monopoly or Uno?
7. What’s your favorite film?
8. If you could have a superporwer, what would it be?
9. Are a cat or a dog person?
10. Do you have a mannerism you dislike or want to get rid off?
11. What’s the thing that you wanted to do before you die?

I tag:

• infelice
• jelitodeleon
• ewonclick
• i-shouldve-told-you
• jantakesmemories
• cupcaketivity
• thetearjerky
• gabriellesoliel
• maikhofranco
• marschmallews
• jujubaluyot
• ultim8-bree —no need to do this again :) Just drop your answer on my ask box.

This is the first time I’m gonna do this. Haha! You guys can just go to my ask box and TA me. I really want to know you guys :)

Just got home from my goddaughter’s christening celebration and I’m bloody tired. We went to Enchanted Kingdom before going there. Got the chance to try their new attraction, Ek-streme (?) It was okay… It feels like your soul left your body. hahaha. Sorry for the twitter-esque post. I don’t have the energy to get my cam and put some photos, did I mention I’m bloo-deh tired?! Ugh.

Wag mong gayahin yung typical na Pilipino ( accdg. to Tanduay Ice’s TVC ). Wag mong bigyan ng kulay.

My mom, brother and, I went to Greenhills this afternoon to fetch my cousin, neice and her yaya. On the way there we decided to take a detour at Greenhills’ Tiangges.

So here’s my problem… I saw these pastel shorts for guys and they’re really really adorable! I wanted to buy them but it wouldn’t be practical since we’re not allowed to wear shorts at iAcademy.

/le sigh.

//mema

Just a moment ago I caught myself crying. Not because I was yawning and I want to go to sleep but because I’m seeing my alone. It scares me. It feels like I’m a guy who’s in his mid-30’s and still doesn’t have a partner and he knows his time running out.

That’s excatly how I feel.

I don’t if you already know this but I’m afraid of getting old and wrinkly. Most of my close friends know this fact about me but only a few people know that I want myself to stop aging at 21. If ever I reach 21 and I’m still single I’ll prolly feel crappy and hate on the universe, just like when I was a kidd.

Kidding aside, I don’t want to be alone when I reach 21

22

23

24

25…

Please, whoever you are, be here already. And I know this is pathetic and kinda old already but please stay with me and never get tired of me.

If only a good partner can be bought off from the groceries! Damn!

I was scanning over my facebook friends’ profile then I saw my old classmate’s page. I viewed it and saw his older brother… which leads me to writing this post.

This old classmate was once my crush and we’re pretty close. He used to call me a lot on our landline, we were in first year back then. We never talk about serious stuff, we talk about tv shows and stuff. I remember talking about Gokusen, a Japanese TV Series, and I remember that one time he passed the phone to his older brother because he needs to go somewhere and he doesn’t want me to wait.

Even though he was my crush I never assumed that time… not until I missed him when he moved to Cebu. When I look back at it I can’t help but to think, maybe he liked me.

Maybe someone liked me.

It’s amazing how I felt hurt when I don’t even know you… I just met you and I’m feeling so much pain because I’m being put aside. This is the first time I felt hurt for a long time…. a really long time.

I wanna tell you how I really feel but I’m afraid that I’ll be ignored once more.

I used to care about everything, every detail, and go paranoid. And now… I’m surprising myself since I can’t react or feel the same away before. I can feel anger, rage, but not fear, shame nor happiness. It is scaring me…

When I see my old crush I can feel my tummy cringe in jealousy, happiness, and a lot of things I can’t explain but now it’s like I don’t even give a fuck about that person. It scares me… the thought of not feeling anything but anger.

I hate-love watching movies. Well, I seriously love watching movies that’s why I have a stack of DVD’s lined up in my room and I even watch in the theatres/ers alone; yes, all by myself; whenever I don’t have a friend to come with me.

I have a few friends so… yeah.

Anyway I hate watching movies because I completely… get absored? No that’s not the word. Ah! Immersed. I get so immersed in movies that they are afteing my emotion and physical state even after watching the movie. It’s just like having a last song syndrom but it’s in the form of movie… that’s not a good example is it? But you get what I mean right?

Just like now I’ve watched Social Network, yeah I just finished it now and bought it’s copy a thousand years ago, and I’m completely angry over Justin Timberlake’s character and pity at Saverin ( Andrew Garfield ). Maybe he gets my sympathy just because he was portrayed by Andrew Garfield. Anyway on the physical side… hey I’m sponatneously writing this.